Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Break my heart for what breaks yours

I feel like I've been hit with a ton of bricks today, and man, do I feel guilty. I'm trying to remember that though I may not be able to change mistakes I've made in the past, I can certainly do better starting today!

I realize that I have slighted one of my beloved children and have not loved him with my whole heart, and maybe even that I have loved him conditionally. It is like the scales have fallen off my eyes and I can see so clearly how I should have been acting instead of how I have. I see and feel how overwhelmingly proud I am of him, and feel the need to tell him RIGHT NOW!! And believe me, I will, just as soon as I get the chance. This kid is overcoming odds, and I've got to tell him how awesome he is!

Just like the 'thing' that has circulated on facebook some--I need to be less concerned with making a good kid than realizing that I already have one!! (or three)

So I just wanted this documented somewhere!
Thank you, Lord, for opening my eyes today!!!!

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Blowing dust off this thing....#Empowered

P31 OBS Blog Hop

Haven't posted here in a long while, but for a blog hop, I'll try it again!! :)

This week's word, #Empowered, has helped me so much! I am remembering that with God's help, nothing is impossible. I am remembering that God wants me to come to Him with EVERYTHING, even my struggle with food. And with God's help, I have been #Empowered to commit to run a 5K in October! Some people around me may have doubts, but I can do it!!

I'll confess, I've gained 20 pounds in the last year. It has really bothered me. I haven't been a Skinny Minnie for years, but I had stayed in the same size clothing pretty much since my 10 year old was born. Even through another pregnancy, I didn't gain enough weight to have to change sizes. But I've had some health problems over the past 18 months, and I suspect that one of the medications I am taking has contributed greatly to the weight gain.

I'm trying not to focus on the number, nor the clothing size, but on getting healthy and exercising more, and making better choices about what I eat. My husband has committed to doing the same as well. I started taking modified TaeKwonDo classes back in the spring and even tested for my yellow belt! I had to stop with the classes for a while when the health problems reared their ugly heads again, but I'm back at it! I am #Empowered! I can do this!! I can hopefully test for my orange belt in 3 months, train to run the 5K, and be healthier!! I am #Empowered by the power of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the closer I get to Him, the better life will get!!