This was too raw to even be able to share until now, and even now as I write this, I am crying. I have had to hold it together as well as I could in front of my students, and couldn't very well bawl while driving up the interstate to class. I went straight to bed last night when I got home. And now I am getting ready to go to choir practice, where I know I am going to cry for the hour and a half I'll be there.
She was a wonderful lady. I've never seen her upset in the 10+ years I've known her. She was always kind and gracious, and friendly to all. She was so loved by her family members, by we her church family, by the nurses who worked under her in our county...by so many people.
I can't believe she's gone. How could she be thanking me for adding her as my friend on Facebook only months ago, now to be gone? I know she is pain free and is looking down on us hurting only because she knows our pain, not because she was afraid of where she would go. She so wanted to be able to see her precious granddaughter who is set to arrive here in June. I have to think that maybe she's holding her in Heaven in some way....because with God, all things are possible.
I worry about her devastated husband. I worry about both her sons who adored their mother. And I worry about her daughter in law who also loved her so well, and how hard it is to be going through this pain while carrying her daughter. I worry about the nurses who she led so faithfully for years. It is just hitting me today that she is gone. I know when I get to Heaven she will be there waiting and ready to give me another sweet hug. And I will look to the Lord and he will show me why she went in the manner she did.
Please pray for Debbie's family and friends in this difficult time. She was truly an angel on Earth.